To Do

Hey I wrote this a few days ago but forgot to post it, guess it should have been on my to do list.


I tie myself up in knots, trying to get my to do list done. I feel like I'm always 10 steps behind. This summer is flying past, I had such big plans, all the things I wanted to do with Tiger, places I wanted to take her, things I wanted to teach her, therapy and homeschooling and I'm an idiot.

Somewhere amongst making all my grand plans and booking stuff I forgot to take into account Tiger.

 Tiger behaves differently depending on the day, how much sleep she's had, which stars are aligned etc. For example, yesterday it took three hours to get Tiger up and ready for the day. That's fed, dressed, teeth brushed, face washed and hair brushed. That's 2 and a half hours of her arguing, yelling, crying, laying on the floor, whining and complaining to accomplish a few basic tasks and half an hour for her to do them. I had to cancel our appointment for the morning, (a little late, since we'd already missed it by the time I called). Yesterday was a bad day.

Today we were up and out within an hour, had time for Timmies and were early for our swimming lesson. No extra effort required, today is a good day. We were able to stop in at the grocer and Tiger is happily playing independently with her dollies, and she is playing not just sorting and lining them up and changing doll outfits, she is full on pretend playing and it's a beautiful thing. Today my kid is eating a lot of food and using her utensils. Today I was able to finish cleaning out the storage room, sort and clean the linen closets and finish unpacking my sewing and craft boxes and hey I'm even writing a post. She is having such a good day, I'm thinking about attempting taking her to a movie, but I'll probably chicken out. I'm sorry that I didn't have more stuff booked for today.

I'm not saying we haven't managed to tick some boxes off our summer to do list, but I am admitting, I was far too ambitious, given that Tiger prefers to stay home in her pajamas. So for the most part other than swimming and appointments Tiger has been having a lazy summer. Whenever I plan to take her places she declines or has a fit about going in the truck.  She seems perfectly content to hang around our house and park.

A friend posted on line about how there is only 23 days left of summer and I had a little panic attack. I don't know how you feel, but I never, ever, feel like I'm doing enough. Daddybear says I need to relax and accept that Tiger is happy to stay in her PJ's and lounge. That she doesn't have to have a playdate every week, a special outing every weekend etc. Meanwhile I'm looking at my pinterest inspired summer bucket/ to do list feeling like a failure because so much is just not going to happen.

So I'm going to scrap the impossible list and write myself a new one  each week that is much more reasonable.


The High Functioning Life, where the to do list has no end, but we can still derive satisfaction from crossing items off the list.

HFL Mama