Big Doses.

I like my stress in big doses. Ok not really, but, since that's the way the cookie seems to crumble,  that's what I tell myself. .

Right now I feel like I'm riding an emotional cheese grater. My mums health is not good, in fact its bad and it was shocking to see just how little of her is left. My grandmother is in the hospital, she might not go home, she had a bad fall and she's in a lot of pain. Heck I was in pain just looking at her. I don't know if she has enough fight left to get through the physical therapy in order to walk again and go home.

 I had to leave Tiger at home with Daddybear in order to travel down to see mum and grandma, and it's always hard to leave her  with someone else, even her Daddybear & then, I came home sick. I picked something up while visiting at the hospital and I was useless on Monday and Tuesday, I don't feel good today but, I feel better and so we are going to try and get some errands done. Nothing got done while I was away or sick, so you can just imagine my to do list for the next few days.

So I'm feeling a little exhausted, a little sick, a little stressed and a lot sad today.  I'm torn, I want to be here with my girl and there helping my family.  I want everything to be OK, and yet I know its not going to be.

 I'm feeling a little bogged down by it all. So I won't be writing another post till next week when hopefully I'll have something good to share.

Maybe I just need a big dose of caffeine to get me going again.

The High Functioning Life, I'll take that latte now please.

HFL Mama





HFL Mama